Current mood:	more than ever...
Current music:	Us - Emily (I know...I'm a loser)

This mark remains...
...and will never, ever go away...

I'm trying to remember the good times.
When I didn't need to feel all of this for you.
When I did feel it, but thought nothing would
ever come of my silly emotions...

I cursed my age and now I curse my bad luck...
choices...whatever you want to call it...
I'm left alone, but I'm glad you're happy.
Really, I am...I mean it now and I'll mean it
forever...

I hope you two go far...
And just forget about me, okay?
I'm serious. I feel like a complete, non-caring
idiot for doing what I did to you...and then
even after...it was bad form for me to act like
that...

I was lost...I guess I still am, but I'm glad
someone has found you. Someone who'll take
better care of you than I ever could...even take
care of myself.

I guess I was living my life by a song...
or...like Romeo and Juliet...it's the oldest story
in the book. One desires what he cannot ever have.
I messed up. I fucked up. And now I have to pay
for it by losing you totally...

I can't say this enough times...

I'm sorry Matty...